May 16, 2011. The birth of one of the biggest achievements in my 21 year old life (at the time I was 21). It was a simple phone call. In fact a 30 second phone call, I can’t remember much (fish memory!) but Kak Publisher asked me to visit when ever I had time. And of course I leave everything and rush out (what could be more important at that second?!).
I only have a few pictures of my childhood years, and one in particular stands out to me (I just took a picture of it with my phone– shows you how friendly I am with techonology. I could have easily scanned it!) I am lying on my tummy on a mountain top –surprise surprise– with dad next to me, and there is a pen in my hand, and if its clear enough you can tell there is a paper also. Even when I was a child I seemed to be ahead of my years…
Not long ago, before the book was published, I went to see the bullet holes still on the walls of the house where we once lived. The house where I hid under the stairs, in the arms of my mother, listening to gunshots and thinking “dad is gone.” After the silence outside, mom lost consciousness and I was on her chest, crying. Moments later I was in my father’s arms, this is all I remember from my childhood.
The second I saw my book, My Nest in Kurdistan, at the publishing house, dozens of them stacked on top of each other, that’s what I remembered. Could it be, that same girl, who sat in fear under the stairs? That same girl refers to the same place as a Nest? Today, I feel as though my pen is a bullet. A soft bullet. A bullet of hope.
What was the most amazing part of this experience is that when I came home with about 75 of my personal copies of the book, on the way home I began to brainstorm all the people who I had to give a copy to. Back home on the kitchen table I wrote a list, and had to give priority of who are the individuals who I was going to dedicated a copy to.
Only on the kitchen table did I realize how lucky I am. I realized the number of people who have influenced my life.
I wished to dedicate copies of the book to so many people, the elderly friends in the Retirement home, the men in the Erbil Retirement Garden, the man who looks after insane individuals in the back room of his Chaykhana, the gardener, the many women who I have met in the villages and on Kurdish mountains. The problem is that all these people can’t read in English. These people, the simplest in the world, are those who have inspired me the most.
(this is part of this week’s “Memoirs” column in the Globe. It was written on two seperate days)
Since the above post the book has been translated into Arabic and the English version was revised, but I want to add a few more sections before a second publication in the future. Insh’Allah. I will make sure by the end of 2015 it can be purchased online.